moving on...

Save Ferris is one of my favorite bands... ska!... I love them... they have a song: "Holding on"
"Sometimes you feel you're losing your mind
When you feel the world is coming down on you There's only one thing that you really should remember to do Keep holding on Keep holding on, yeah Better days are coming Just as this one's surely gone Keep holding on Keep holding on, yeah Things will be much better But you've got to keep holding on"

So... I'm just getting through the day today...

I daydream a lot... well.. I used to daydream a loooot more before, I guess I've learned that that doens't always help and that you should be a little more down to earth and even though I can admitt I really AM down to earth... I've refused for a couple of years now to be as down to earth as people expect me to be, because then... where's the fun?? I can be both... and since being down to earth somehow doesn't allow me to daydream.. I've had this huge struggle... 'cuz I believe you can have the best of both worlds, but it hasn't worked that well so far...

I usually blow this huge bubbles... filled with dreams, illusions and well... basically, lies and I love living inside them until they have to be burst... and this is what happened to me yesterday... I had to bust my bubble...

I really liked this one... same as the last one... only the last one was actually coming true and with this one I guess I wanted it to be a little different and I didn't want to mess it up like last time but I couldn't... I had to pop it... and now I have to live with it...

I know it's just a couple of days... I'll try to think about something else... mind my own bussiness and learn from this...

lesson learned:
As a general rule, people will want what they can't have... but sometimes you have to realize that it won't happen and move on... so, daydreaming is nice, but you need to burst the bubble a little faster.

What's up with her?

So... who am I again?
What do I do?
What the heck am I doing writing this?
I have noooo idea..
lol

Everything is a process... so, in the process we'll see if I can understand myself a little more... and if I can pretty much... share something good... this is not a selfish act! lol :D ok.. maybe a little, but still... I think you can learn from people's experiences so... let's see if I can do it.