Elizabeth Barrett Browning once said...
"A heavy heart, Belovèd, have I borne
From year to year until I saw thy face"
And not only that but described so many things in so little words
that it amazes me to see how much I feel as she felt...
Saying things you feel might be an easy job for some...
...for me it's not...
going from love to hate to tenderness...
...I guess I used to think I was not made for it...
but now I think I feel it's not so...
Now from time to time I still see myself from a bubble outside
and do not recognize the girl I see...
'cause change and change have always been prepared
for me and now I see that maybe love was made for me...
In such a wide world I had seen...
scenes of past lifes walk in front of me...
and my story of a lifetime had no ending yet set...
but now I see that all of those
before had no ending 'cause it was meant to be so...
The eternal story of a lifetime had not yet been written..."until I saw thy face"...
Amazement is a word I'm fond of... 'cause there's no higher grace than the smile
of amazement... and it's so complex to find... the inner feeling that lets you know
"now is the time"...
And all of a sudden... I remembered...
"Shall i compare thee to a Summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May
And Summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
and oft' is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from far somtime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd:
But thy eternal Summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest
Nor shall Death brag thou wanderest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee."
...perfect feeling...
Lesson learned:
Things can change...therefore...they have...
Even though saying what I feel may not be an easy job for me...
A universe of letters and words I had not known before has been opened for me...
... it didn't magically opened...that's the thing...that's what makes me happy...
