Ephemeral ideas of change...

Seeing both sides of the picture...
A person who is completely in love
and a hurting heart makes you wonder...
how it all matched in the end...
I think human behavior tells us that no matter what you do... or how much you struggle you will always be predictable...
A predictable person with ephemeral ideas of change...





Under no circumstance will I say everybody is the same... Although everybody is the same sometimes
I spend too much time at times...thinking
Thinking about the way things work
Why some people act the way they do...but more than that why I sometimes act the way I do...

Some people let their life go by not knowing how much they're missing, the laughs, the memories, the happiness...
Some people fight to be different...to prevent their lives from being predictable, usual, like everybody else and they don't realize that makes them just like the rest...

And I wonder...why we struggle trying to be different...
When we already are...

I started watching people, what they do, what they believe in, what they consider is the most important thing in life, in friendship, in dreams...
Yes, I think in a different way... and that makes me just as everybody else...
Yes, I cry when I lose a friend, someone who had no chance to go beyond 20, someone who lived his life trying to be different not realizing he already was...
Yes, I don't know much about anything in life and most of the times I listen... I listen carefully, to what people say, to what they listen to, to what they think, to how they love without words, to how they hold beautiful hidden dreams in their soul...

It saddens me to realize some people have actually come to believe that we should all be the same, that men "are all the same", that women "will always act that way" , that relationships "will have the same ending"...that haven't realized that we are... only humans... learning, trying, fearing, loving, crying, believing...

So when I say... "I thought you were different" I mean... "I thought you knew who you really are"
because only a person who has discovered or is in the process of knowing who they are knows how to act honestly, selflessly, happily...from the heart... not trying to impress anybody, not trying to go beyond galaxies to prove that they are "different"

Theories, theories... silly theories...
Butterflies that fly in my head, carrying dreams, secrets, love, music and tears...


Lesson learned:

I am...the same as you... a person who's trying to be different from you...
You are different already...
And I... I'm just a girl...a dreamer who's in the process of realizing that love is ephemeral when you don't know who you really are just yet...